Turning the switch

The truth hurts.  The truth is in 6 months I gained back almost half the weight I lost 2 years ago.  Sure.  I had a lot of stuff going on and maybe that’s a good enough excuse but the fact remains.

I’m not happy about it.

And I could just keep on doing what I’ve been doing and gain it ALL back 6 months from now but I’m not going to let that happen.

Really if you asked me what it was about going to a nutritionist that worked for me is that it’s sort of like counseling + nutritional advice.  We talked about what happened to me in the past 6 months.

I lost my father.

I almost lost my job.

I lost my dog.

All those losses equaled huge gains on the scale.

I told M today that it was like I turned off a switch in September.  I was feeling so unbalanced it was just easier to shut that part of my life off.  My workouts were done halfheartedly and I ate whatever I felt like eating.  I’m going to be honest here.  I’m not sure that I’m 100% back in the mindset I need to be in but I’m really going to make an effort in the next few weeks.  There are all sorts of sayings about how long it takes to break a habit.   And the conclusion of that article is…you basically have to keep working on it for the rest of your life.

Depressing – but if I’ve learned nothing these past few months it’s that it’s absolutely true.

The new game plan? Get back to the old one.

1) Portion size.  I don’t eat things that are terribly bad – I’ve just been eating too much of them.  More salads.  Half of what I eat out goes home or goes back to the kitchen.

2) Moderation.  I’m going back to the drinking wine mostly when I go out or on weekends.  I’m going to do the 1 drink 1 water or Diet Coke rule.

3) Put away the Metrocard.  It’s 25 degrees today.  I walked from M’s to the office and I didn’t die.  I need to walk to and from work more.

4) Exercise.  I’m committing to doing something 4 days a week.  Jen and I already have plans to do this run.  While in Cancun I did C25K – week 3 and I did it easily.  I have to stop babying myself and just work out already.   To mix it up I’m going to try for yoga at home + the stairs and the gym or Zumba 2x a week.   All the extra walking is just icing. 

5) I probably should have used another word besides icing.

So that’s that.  Look for more healthy recipes here, new ways that I find to exercise, and just basically getting back to the old (new) me.